Friday, February 28, 2014

A Year Of Motherhood: Monthly Link Up

This month has been a total whirlwind of lunches, routines, and getting in and out of the car numerous times a day.

Sharing A Year Of Motherhood with Tahnee has been comforting.  Although we've only caught up once in person this year,  knowing that we share those spills, those routines, and those giggles, and that we cling to those minute moments of space is reassuring.  Plus I get to see her mad skills with the camera every second day.

How many of us are there go through their day, day in and day out, sometimes with very little adult contact, and wonder at the end of the day if we are doing anything right?

What is right anyway?

Sharing this journey at least makes it easier.  Doesn't it?

Thank you from both Tahnee and I for all of your likes and encouragement over the past two months.  We'd love for you to share some of your daily, weekly or monthly Motherhood journey's.  Link up your post's either below, or over with Milk Please Mum.

And if you're on Instagram, you can join us on #ayearofmotherhood.

Tuesday, February 25, 2014


 "A portrait of my loves once a week, every week"

Ruby::  Surrounded by her NZ cousins for the first time in a long time.  She was sitting back and taking it all in, before she fully launched herself in their company.
Jenson::  Dark eyelashes and faint freckles
Mila::  Taking a breather from the big hill she just walked up.

I realised this week that I seem to take all of my photo's of Johnny on the weekend.  Since I was not home this weekend, there are no photo's of Johnny this week.  I will have to remedy this.

Joining Jodi for The 52 Project

Tuesday, February 18, 2014

Emotions have been running high

The dropped lip has been pretty common around here lately, and emotions have been running high.  We've seen some big changes and big events and they all seem to be taking their toll.

We've seen some very out of character behaviour from Jenson.  It's almost like we have a Jekyll and hyde in the house.  I've been doing some reading on 4 1/2 year old boys, and its reassuring to know that it is quite common for boys of his age to behave in this way, with the silliness, the mood swings, the inability to think for themselves.  This article might ring true for those of you with 4 year old boys.

We were having sleep issues, which we seem to have curbed, but which has also meant that we've been having a visitor in our bed again most nights.  We have also stopped his swimming lessons as he was dreading them, to the point of having major tantrums in the changing rooms,  due to a particular exercise which frightened him.  Thankfully he is happy to go swimming, he just doesn't like the lessons.

There have been some health issues too.  The past week has been better, and we are starting to see some results from Dr's and naturopaths suggestions.

The poor boy is also quite upset that he will not be coming to NZ with Ruby and I later this week.  He will be needing extra cuddles I think.

Ruby's transition to her new school has been a little harder than we would have hoped too.  After being assured she would be in her friends class, she was changed into another class, which made things a bit difficult.  I did not think I would be getting "I don't want to go to this school Mum" third week in.  But we are so proud of her.  There have been no tears, and she is happy to walk through the gates each morning to her new friends.

She had a sleep-over birthday party last weekend.  Her first sleep-over at a friends house.  She had been doing really well lately, so I let her go along.  I was not particularly impressed however when it was being tossed up whether they went to bed at 12 or 1am!!  She slept for a good three hours on Sunday when she got home, and was still very tired up until this morning.

And then there is me.  I've been a big shouty mess the last couple of days, and tired.  So, so tired.  I was trying to think the last time I felt like this.  I remembered when it was, because I posted a photo on instagram.  It was the same time last year, and I'm pretty sure I felt the same the year before too.  I don't know what it is about this time of year.  A big heavy blanket seems to draw over me, bringing fatigue, anxiety, and general crankiness.  It really is just plain awful and the days can't end soon enough for me.  I've been trying to breathe, but sometimes that overwhelming feeling just floods me.

Each night I write in my diary something that I have been grateful for that day.  This is what I will enter tonight.

"Today I am grateful that tomorrow is a brand new day."

Sunday, February 16, 2014


"A portrait of my loves, once a week, every week in 2014"

Ruby::  Full of beauty
Jenson::  He will be the class clown
Mila::  Late arvo sleeps, means staying up late
Johnny::  Saturday morning wrestles

I loved these bath shots last week.

Joining Jodi for The 52 Project

Wednesday, February 12, 2014

January, with music

It's been a fair few weeks since I've posted a weekly stills.  And I've got a fair few images that I didn't just want to gather virtual dust.  So I've put them together for a different kind of collection.

A part of me wants to apologise for the choice of music that accompanies this collection.  But another part, the surrendering part, knows that this choice of music is what is real to this particular time.

It has been the soundtrack for the past few weeks.

I guess that is what comes with having a six year old daughter who is really starting to find her own place and her own tastes in this world.

Who am I to stop that?

It also makes for a smile on some faces when your two year old daughter starts yelling at Siri in the doctor's waiting room to "Play One Direction!"

Anyway, here's a part of what our January looked like.

Very cheekily linking to Em's weekly stills.  Thanks Em xo

Monday, February 10, 2014

Ten on Ten

Joining Rebecca, for 10 photo's on the 10th of each month.

:: A little message for the lunchbox
:: The front door left open to say goodbye to Daddy
:: A moment to herself after the big kids have been dropped off at school and kinder
:: Hazy skies from nearby fires
:: Each time we go to town she must sit in this car.  she explains it to us by pulling her hair out, giving a big grin and saying "like this!"
:: Golden hues and in need of a pedicure.
:: Auntie scored at the the op shop. $4!
:: Setting up the skittles
:: Fresh smokve, or figs, from Baba's tree
:: Scraped heels call for bandaids.

Sunday, February 9, 2014


 "A portrait of my loves once a week, every week in 2013"

Ruby::  Second week back at school, and there has been a lot more thumb sucking than usual.
Jenson:: Shiny eyes, bright smile and a strawberry stained singlet
Mila::  Post breakfast vegemite face
Johnny::  Working something out.  I'm not entirely sure what.

How can you not love this family portrait from last week.

Joining Jodi for The 52 Project

Saturday, February 8, 2014

Nudes & Panties

Now if that won't get your attention, not much will!

Do you know one of the many things I like about weekends?  Travel shows.  There is quite an abundance of them.  Some Australian based, some even more locally based, some International, some real intrepid, but all capturing my interest.  And many of them during a time when I have to be shushing the children as I try to get them interested in them too.

But one show has really captured my heart.  I caught Bare-Faced Cheek, (the proper French name of which is Nudes and Panties!) for the first time around the start of the year, and I've been hooked ever since.

It's follows Nans and Mouts, two French intrepid adventurers,who face an unlikely challenge: to cross the country in order to reach their destination in the heart of one of France's most picturesque regions. 

The complication? They start the journey naked and with no money and will depend on the hospitality and generosity of everyone they meet along the way. 

Tonight's episode they travel across the breathtakingly beautiful French island Corsica and Italy's island gem, Sardinia. 

It's more than a travel show, in fact you don't get to see much of the places they are visiting at all.  It's more a documentary on humanity.  It's a feel good show that always leaves me saying "That's friggin awesome!"

If you happen to be in front of the box tonight at 7.30, switch on to SBS 2.  Or you can catch up On Demand

Tuesday, February 4, 2014

Good Intentions

Image taken for, and shared on A Year Of Motherhood

I've been finding it hard to get here lately.  Well, actually, that's not quite right.  It just hasn't been a priority. Not that I don't want to.  I miss sharing my thoughts and our day to day here, and to be honest, I can't quite believe we are already in February.

January was a good month.  After a very hectic, often overwhelming and at times very tense December, January came with the freshness, every and vigour that comes with anything new.  It welcomed me with new focus, new intentions, slow mornings, family days and a lightness that felt good.  So good!

I started the year with intentions.  Not resolutions.  Resolutions are not for me.  Intentions don't have the same pressure as resolutions, and therefore the path to fail.  I can at any time remember my intentions.  Let life flow and then bring myself back to them.

My intentions for this year are all about me, and all about love.  I have had so many synchronicities pulling me in this direction, that the Universe has literally been yelling at me!  I cannot truly love another, without first loving myself wholly.  Accepting myself wholly.  I'm allowing myself more space.  Giving myself the self respect I deserve and working on being love.  I've been practising daily gratitude, which has been a revelation, and I've been meditating regularly, attempting to still the mind.  I'm breathing more, fully and deeply into my belly.  That, in itself, is a great feeling!

The past week, however, has been met with routines and that feeling of being overwhelmed again.  That feeling of having too much on my plate and only wanting to put my attention into my personal pursuits.  These are the days that I need to remind myself of my intentions, and to also accept that there will be tough times. As a very good friend put to me recently "When we accept both light and dark, we find balance".

2014 is going to be a big year for me and my family, and practising daily self love is going to be a big part of this year.

Do you have any intentions, or maybe resolutions for 2014?

Saturday, February 1, 2014


 "A portrait of my loves, once a week, every week in 2014"

Ruby::  Waiting and pensive
Jenson::  Once he's warmed up, he's a real dare devil...until Daddy goes too fast.
Mila:: Icy poles on a hot day
Johnny::  Taking in the view and taking a breather from sprinting the kids up the beach on the skim board.

This big brother shot was one of my faves last week, along with his sisters.

Joining Jodi for The 52 Project